Thursday, October 27, 2011

I'm right where I'm supposed to be

I feel like a recurring theme in my blog posts is my need and desire to be present to where I am and what I'm doing. In past entries, I've focused on the need to be present in Nicaragua instead of being mentally in Houston, but I think that my biggest obstacle to presence isn't location. Instead, I think it's the fact that I constantly overanalyze everything and try to think 10 steps ahead of where I am. I like to know what's coming next and be looking forward to it - and don't get me wrong, I love the fact that I'm a planner and that is never going to change about me. But sometimes, I need to just recognize the beauty in the present time instead of preparing for beauty in the future.

I have moments where this is easier for me than others. This past weekend, for some reason, I just soaked in the beauty that was presented to me in small moments throughout very normal experiences. On Friday, I went over to a family's house to help them with some English, and ended up staying for 2.5 hours and just chatting. One of their extended family members who was there asked me a ton of questions about spaceflight and orbital mechanics, and things I hadn't really had a reason to think about in a long time. For the record, even with a very good grasp on orbital mechanics, it's really hard to explain it in Spanish!

Saturday, I took a bus to one of the malls in Managua to buy more notebooks for our kids English class. I really enjoy the buses here, even though they are fairly run down and always about 3 times as crowded as they probably should be. For me, the buses are a great way to see a cross-section of life here in Nicaragua. There's always such a variety of people, and on the ride across the city, it's impossible not to learn a little bit more about what life is really like. On my way back, I decided to get off at the community and go hang out with community members for a while. As I walked from the main road back to my friend Dayana's house, I passed a birthday birthday for an 8-year-old, where 10-15 kids were having fun with music and a pinata. After stopping to talk to them for a while, their smiles and laughs were contagious. After sitting and visiting with Dayana and her mom Lorena, I walked back out to the road to grab a ride home. On the way, another 8 year old from my English class, Axel, stopped me to ask me some questions and to ask me to say hi to my housemates for him. As I walked down a dirt road in the middle of a small community in Nicaragua, and Axel shouted another question down at me from halfway down the road, I felt an overwhelming sense of being in the right place. I can't exactly explain why - maybe it was how much time I'd spent in the community on Friday and Saturday, or maybe it was because the weather was nice for the first time in a while, or maybe it was because, for just a moment, I wasn't thinking about what would come next.

Sunday morning, I left the house at 6:15am to walk to church for 7am Mass. It was a beautiful morning, and the temperature was perfect. Besides the rooster who crowed right into my ear as I walked past (thanks, rooster, but I promise I was awake), it was a peaceful walk and a good time to reflect. I ended up walking the last little bit with one of the men who plays music at Mass each week, and it was nice to get to chat with him. I had never actually met him before, and yet he was extremely friendly and welcoming as we walked together. It was another reminder of how amazing the community I have the priviledge to work with is.

The best way that I can say "thank you" for the gift of being here is to live each day in the present and to recognize those small blessings which are EVERYWHERE each day. As important as it is to have a long-term plan, it's equally important to actually LIVE the plan for me in each day and in each moment - and recognize, even when it's not always clear, that I really am exactly where I'm supposed to be for this moment of God's plan for me.

Welcome to wherever you are,
this is your life, you made it this far.
Welcome, you gotta believe
that right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be.
- Bon Jovi

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Rain, rain, go away...

It hasn't stopped raining here for more than a couple hours since Tuesday. I really wish I was exaggerating, but I'm not. I feel like this is the first time that rain has become a MAJOR inconvenience for me in my life. Life here is SO much more dependent on the weather, just due to doing more things outdoors and not having great infrastructure to handle heavy downpours. A few of the reasons why the rain has made daily life a bit harder this week...

- As I think I've mentioned before, the road which leads into where we teach in Cedro Galan is a dirt road which has a tendency to become a river when it rains a lot. On Tuesday morning when we drove by, it was WAY more of a complete river than we had ever seen it - we could literally see no road. I didn't capture a good picture then, so it had drained for a few hours before I took this one, but you can still get the idea. At multiple points throughout the week, it was a fully flowing river with no visible land. Even when land was visible, it was REALLY slippy and difficult to walk down without slipping. We weren't able to have classes Tuesday since no one would be able to get down the road to El Farito.


- The power system here has a lot more power outages than at home, but most are short-lived. With all the rain, we had some long power outages on Thursday and Friday. We weren't able to have classes on Thursday afternoon/evening due to having no power. If you can tell from the theme, it's been a slow week....it's frustratingly hard to have classes here with the weather going crazy.

- Our two poor dogs do NOT like the rain. They have become experts at sneaking into the house if we leave the gate even a little bit open, and we've had to physically push them out of the house multiple times this week. Cola spent a lot of the week standing at the door whining at us (which he is doing as I type this...), and when he and Sydney did get in, they beelined for the bunk room, where our couches are currently living, and made themselves at home.



- I seriously don't own anything dry anymore. The moisture hanging around means everything's wet, even things that never started out wet. I tried to find a laundromat that would also dry clothing, since my clothes were all dirty and wet and i wanted them clean and dry. Turns out that those are hard to find. So, I just used our washer at home, and hung clothes up to dry. I'm hoping they're dry in under 72 hours, but who knows.

In fun news, I took an overnight trip to Granada, a colonial city about an hour south of Managua. It was nice to get away for a night, be a tourist, eat some delicious food, and enjoy some more of Nicaragua's beauty. I also was able to go to adoration and Mass at the Cathedral in town, which was an unexpected treat!! All in all, it was a great trip. I'd have better pictures if it hadn't been raining the whole time....but here are a couple anyways.



Here's hoping for less rain soon! I did see the sun for a few minutes this morning....

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Quarterly Review

Last weekend, we had the opportunity to take a few days, get out of the Manna house, and reflect on the past 3 months. It is crazy how quickly the past three months have passed - I still have some days where I feel like I just arrived! Particularly in the past few weeks, I have been very, very busy, and sometimes it's easy to miss the bigger picture when I am so busy with the details. Having a few days to relax as a group, reflect on where we've been and what we've accomplished, and discuss what our goals are for the next few months was both beneficial and enjoyable.

As a group, we made a list of our successes and the things that we are most proud of from the last couple months, and I'd like to share a few of them with you:
  • Community relationships - it has been a huge blessing to get the chance to connect with the families who live in Cedro Galan, Chiquilistagua, and La Chureca. I have really enjoyed just having the opportunity to spend time with them, learn more about their daily life, and understand this country and these communities better. I don't have as much time to do this as I wish, but I really enjoy the time I do spend in the community.
  • Good transition and continued high attendance in programs - due to the turnover with Manna PDs each year, it's sometimes difficult to have continuity in programs and to maintain attendance as things change. Many people have remarked that we have done a good job picking up where last year's PDs left off and continuing forward with each program. It has been great to see our program attendance remain high, and in some programs even increase.
  • Our first milk day without the old PDs, the day where we hand out food for the month to our child sponsorship kiddos, went off incredibly smoothly. A lot of this had to do with two qualities which kept coming up again and again as successes: everyone's ability to be proactive and to be flexible. A combination of these two is definitely needed here - as a group, we've been able to do quite a bit due to everyone being proactive, and have a clean house, a restructured English program, and some new partnerships to show for it. However, as with everything here in Nicaragua, nothing ever goes exactly as planned, and flexibility is key. :)
There's many more, but those are definitely a few of the highlights for me from the past few months.

We also took the opportunity to make some goals for the next few months. They ranged from small things, like trying every flavor of ice cream at the store next to Farito and keeping the house clean, to bigger goals like reaching out to more families in the communities, saying thank you more often, and planning ahead more for our programs. I hope that, in a few more months when we have our second retreat, we're able to look back on these goals and count them as our successes.

I also took the time to reflect and make some personal goals for myself, which I'm still working on follow-through for. My main goal for myself for the next few months is to stay present in Nicaragua and make sure I'm mentally here all the time. As I mentioned a few weeks ago, it's been a balancing act to determine how much to keep in touch with friends from home. It continues to be a balancing act, and is easier some days than others. This past week, I have done a pretty good job of being present here regardless of things happening at home - probably due to being so busy that I didn't have time to think about home much even if I wanted to. As the next few months pass, I hope to fall into a natural rhythm of continuing friendships at home, but also deepening relationships here and making sure that my focus stays here in Nicaragua with me.

Here are a few pictures from the retreat - a group dinner at a real table (which we are lacking in our house), and a Pacific ocean sunset.

Getting ready for a delicious meal of lasagna

I had some fun playing with photography on the beach - the sunset was gorgeous!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

A (slighty crazy) Wednesday in the Life

Hello all! First of all, thanks for your support of Manna in the Chase Community Giving competition. We didn't end up winning, but we got an incredible number of votes given how small the organization is. I appreciate your support, as well as your tolerance of my spamming. Now that that's done, we'll go back to normally scheduled blog posts!

I still plan to write a blog about the group retreat we had last week, but today was such a ridiculous day that I feel like it merits a day-in-the-life post. While life here does tend to be crazy in general, this happened to be a particularly crazy Wednesday, so don't consider this a typical day by any means. I figure it's fun to share about the ridiculousness of Nica life as well sometimes!

7:00am: Wake up and eat some delicious French Toast while getting some papers ready for the day and checking in on e-mail (which I'm WAY behind on - sorry if I owe you an e-mail!) Also finish hand-writing all our milk day forms, since I realized last night that our printer was out of ink.
8:00am: Do some final Facebook spamming for Chase Community Giving competition.
8:10am: Pack up the car. It's milk day, one of the days where we pass out milk, cereal/oatmeal/beans, and vitamins to the kiddos in our Child Sponsorship program.
8:20am: Leave the house to drive to Chureca. On the way, pick up the nurse who works with us, who is waiting on the side of the road with 100+ lb of cereal.
8:50am: Arrive at Chureca. We can't drive in the front entrance today for some reason, which we normally do for milk days. So, we park at the back entrance, and wait for the father of a former Child Sponsorship kiddo, who has agreed to meet us with his horse and buggy to carry our stuff in down a path which isn't drivable with a car. Between the hand-written milk day forms and the horse and buggy entrance, we seem to have regressed technologically as far as milk days go.
9:05am: Horse and buggy arrive and we load up all our stuff and then, after a short chat with a passing policeman who seems kind of confused by us, walk behind the horse and buggy to the clinic.

9:15am: Arrive at clinic, set up for milk day, get jumped on by Esteven and later by Douglas, two of my favorite child sponsorship kids. Look how cute Esteven is...he's also a little monkey and loves to climb on us all the time.

10:30ish: About halfway through milk day, realize that there had been a misunderstanding between me and the nurse who works with us, likely due to my far-from-perfect Spanish ability. This led to me giving some families too much food...so we had to retrieve some. Slightly awkward. Note to self: ask for clarification a lot of times to make sure Spanish isn't a failure in the future.
11:00ish: Walk out of Chureca, stop by the ink store to refill our printer cartridge (which doesn't work for some reason....boo), and stop by the grocery store to buy some snacks for a kid's English pool party!
12:00pm: Arrive home and eat lunch while working on some finance stuff and lesson planning for my math and literacy classes.
1:15pm: Head out for math and literacy, with two copies of my worksheets since I've only had two students for the past couple weeks. Drive to the place we park our car during programs, and then walk the 1km to El Farito for class.
1:30pm: Math and literacy starts. Our attendance has doubled for some reason today, and we had 3 less PDs to run the program than usual...so we improvised! I will say that one skill that I'm getting very good at here is reacting to changes on-the-fly, since things rarely go as planned in Nica. I worked on letters/the alphabet with one of the preschool students, and simple words with a low-level first grader. Then, during math, I had four students instead of my normal two, so I very quickly made two more worksheets, and I think they learned at least SOMETHING about inequalities with fractions!
3:00pm: Leave math and literacy as soon as it ends to walk back to the car, and drive to pick up 16 kids and 3 adults to come to a pool party - an attendance prize for one of our kid's English classes. It was our class with our youngest students, so we stuck to the shallow end of the pool. They were pretty cute!

4:40pm: Herd all the kiddos back into the car to drive them home and make two trips to get all of our teen English students to class. A bunch of our kids decided to help me out by walking partway so I didn't have to return as far on my 2nd trip. Have I mentioned that I LOVE our teen English students?
5pm: Help out with teen English. I don't actually teach this class, just help with classroom control, attendance, sharpening pencils, etc - basically whatever I can do to help it run smoothly for Sam and Maggie. I LOVE this class and it's usually a highlight of my Mondays and Wednesdays. :)
6pm: Class ends, and I do two trips to drive students and fellow PDs home before heading to El Farito for an extra beginner's English class Sam and I are teaching. We weren't able to have class yesterday due to no electricity and our students being unable to read their papers without light, but we have a placement exam tomorrow and they wanted a review day. About 20-25 students show up to a weirdly-scheduled class to review - I was so excited they all came! And, on the whole, they knew most of what we were reviewing, which is good news.
7pm: Leave El Farito, pick up some friends who are coming to meet with us about the nonprofit they run, and head home.
7:20pm: Eat some dinner while meeting with Fabricio, Norman, and Gabe about the work that they do with preschools in the area. They are doing some great things and it was a lot of fun to learn more about what they do!
8:30pm: Realize I've been working for 12 hours straight and am exhausted - time to be unproductive!
9pm: Almost fall asleep while drinking coffee sitting at the table in the office. Ooooops.
9:15pm: Catch up with a few friends from home online, and write this blog.

As crazy as the day was, I was incredibly joyful for most of it, even when exhausted. I always prefer being too busy to not busy enough, and having so much to do here helps me stay present. I also just have to laugh at the randomness of life here sometimes - it definitely keeps me on my toes!

Lastly, I mentioned earlier how we don't take many pictures of La Chureca, since we want to build trust with the families and not be "slum tourists" (which there are a ridiculous number of - groups of Americans who come into Chureca with police escorts and walk around and take pictures from their cushy air conditioned bus). However, I do want to share Chureca with you, and today I snapped a picture of the trash workers from a distance as we walked in. As new trash is dumped, many of the people who live in Chureca dig through it to find recyclables or things they can sell. Many, many people work in the trash each day, as vultures circle around overhead. As you'll see, the view is actually beautiful around Chureca, other than the piles of trash. Hopefully this will help start to paint a picture for you in your head, even though it still doesn't show you anything about the homes or lifestyles of our families - that will come in time. Click on the picture (and any other picture I post) to see a bigger version - I know this one is super small here, but click and then you'll be able to check it out!



Although we didn't win the Chase competition this week, it made me realize how large Manna's support system is, and how large my personal support system is. To each of you, thank you so much for your support - whether it be prayers, financial support, encouraging words, or just a quick e-mail to say hi. I have been incredibly blessed by each of you, and I only hope that I can also be a blessing in your life.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Five more days to vote!

If you haven't already taken 30 seconds to help Manna Project win $1 million, please go to http://www.facebook.com/ChaseCommunityGiving?sk=app_123284047772276 and do it now!! Then, tell all your friends about it....we're in third place now, so need a big push to move up!

Our team here in Nicaragua had our first retreat these past 2 days, and it was a great time to get away, refocus, and look back on what we've accomplished in our first two months and what we hope to accomplish in the future. It is quite amazing, to say the least, to think about everything that has happened since arriving! The money we could win from the Chase competition would allow us to continue doing what we do, and to do even more - we'd have more resources to provide for our students, more ability to provide loans for our microfinancing, and the chance to expand our work in La Chureca - among many other things.

Please help us do this and so much more by voting and sharing the link with your friends! I appreciate your help!